Do you ever have those moments of feeling completely lost? Unsure of what would actually light you up in life?
That being said, you know at some point that you HAD at one time the clarity of what really lit you up and over time it fizzled out or you reached that passionate goal and now here you are?
This is where I am at. Right Now. In the present.
I can’t seem to shake it and at the same time I am clear that something will come along that lights me up and sparks that passion I once had for what I was up to…
I have been here before. This very spot.
I think everything in life comes in waves. Entering into my 40th year here on earth I am reminded of how far I have come….and how much I feel like I really have not been here this long! I used to think 40 sounded ancient…now that I am embarking into it…it seems so young.
I have moments of making myself wrong. That I am not at where I wanted to be. Typically this a conversation about wealth and career status. I hear that is very common. In the moment though, it can feel like I am the only person on this great planet experiencing it.
Have you been there?
Very quick to place judgement on myself for not doing enough or being enough or having enough in my life. Like there was some sort of formula out there when I was born that said “when a + b + c come together Tammy, it WILL equal everything you ever wanted and happiness will appear!”
Then I spend my days trying to figure out what the ‘a’ was, the ‘b’ was or the ‘c’ was so I could encrypt this crazy code and standard I have been trying so hard to live up to all my life and my life would be happy ALL the time.
Does this resonate with anyone?
Quickly, I forget about the training I have taken on, the difference I have made with people from around the world and I go into this place wondering when the light bulb of inspiration (like what you see in a great cartoon over the characters head) will come on and I will spring into action and all my wildest dreams will come true!
Everything except for the light bulb and cartoon character…I really do wish that could happen! How cool would that be?!
What I am learning while being in this place is that I am doing okay. Nothing I have from the past to where I am now, should be looked at as a loss or regret because without it, I would not have had a very rich 40 years of life so far.
Being kind to myself and allowing myself to be open to discovering, being open to new opportunities, continuing to grow what I do currently, discover the aspects of it all that I truly love and then do that….THAT is what will have this gloomy flickering light bulb above me begin to shine bright.
Soon, there is light in this tunnel, I promise!
No amount of wealth will inspire happiness for me….that I know…..it’s about people. It is about enriching the lives of others in so many ways….Ways I am not even sure of yet.
I see what I am trying to say here is if you can relate to ANY of today’s message here…it is to hang in there, stay the course, discover what you love, discover what you will not stand for, keep moving forward. That is really all there is to do. Keep moving forward.
I know that moment is just around the corner for me too…. Stay strong. Need to talk? Reach out.
I am here and completely get it.